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I am currently reading tips on bottle feeding. I’m planning to start working soon, so in lieu with that, I need Lana to learn how to bottle feed (again!). I started her to bottle feed as soon as she was 1 month plus. Read that introducing baby to bottle when baby is less than a month will cause nipple confusion. It was so hard to get Lana to establish the bottle feed. She cried and refused, but after about 2 weeks of training, she was able to do it. I feed her from bottle during the day and continue to breastfeed her at night.

Sometime after Raya, Lana started to refuse bottle. And this time, it was harder to train her. She rather chew the bottle’s nipple (sometimes to an hour) than sucking on it. Sometime, she even falls asleep - still no suckling. Then, we had to travel here and there, which means, consistency is compromised - with her crankiness plus I don’t want to go through the hassle of feeding her with bottle and hear her cries everytime I do it (oh, plus the staring of people - most of the time, I’m afraid they’ll say things like “Doesn’t she see that her baby does not want the bottle?” or “What kind of a mother that force her baby to drink from bottle even when she refused?”) .

I have tried everything I read - except the ‘ask somebody else to bottle-feed the baby and mother should not be in the room’. The only somebody else at home is my husband. But the fact that he is always (most of the time) not at home or is always too tired to handle the feed or cave in after a only a few trials (dengan alasan tak sampai hati), I failed to do that. On weekends pulak, since Raya, we were never really at home. And the only weekend that we were home - Lana had a cold, hence the beginning of her bottle refusal.

I keep hoping and praying and of course trying.