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~Libra~ with a drop of Pisces

Libra is the seventh Sign of the Zodiac, and it is at this point in the Zodiac
that we start to see a shift. While the first six Signs of the Zodiac focus on
the individual, the last six focus on the individual’s contact with others and
with the world. Librans are first and foremost focused on others and how they
relate to them. We can call this the Sign of partnership with a capital ‘P’
because these folks do not want to be alone! For a Libran, everything is better
if it’s done as a pair. Librans are good when paired up, too, since they
epitomize balance, harmony and a sense of fair play. Librans feel most complete
when they part of a romantic couple.

It’s the Scales that symbolize Libra, and just like that balancing mechanism
wants to stay even, Librans want to be on an even keel. Think of the Scales of
Justice and how they work at striking the right balance. Likewise, Librans are
objective, just and want to do what’s best for everyone. It’s possible, though,
that this penchant for fairness is for a different reason: Librans abhor
conflict. The Scales study every possible angle in the hopes of achieving peace
and harmony, so much so that others may see them as fickle and indecisive. If
that’s what it takes to avoid a confrontation, that’s fine with the Scales. The
Libra-born are keen strategists, organizing groups with poise and getting the
job done (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Further,
you can expect the Scales to be companionable, sociable folks.
Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was a
smooth seductress who was at her best amid pleasurable excess. Well, Librans are
certainly carrying the torch for her today. The Scales are cultured, refined and
love beautiful things. Most of all, they love beautiful people, which is why
Librans do so well at parties or school dances. Those born under this Sign
always have the right thing to say and know how to make others feel comfortable.
Suave? You bet. Librans are so adept at charming conversation that they need to
be mindful of overstepping their boundaries and appearing vain or gossipy (the
Scales do love intrigue). When these folks are on their game, however, they are
a pleasure to be with. Librans are artistic, stylish and enjoy creating a
beautiful world. The converse of this is that bored Librans can become apathetic
and lazy–but they’ll smile anyway.

The Element associated with Libra is Air, and that means reaching higher,
specifically to the higher mind. Librans like to put their mind to good use, and
enjoy communicating their thoughts to others. They like to use their smarts (and
talk) to get to know others better–yes, knowledge about people is where it’s at
for Librans. You can expect the Scales to make a fair argument, too, since they
live by the principles of diplomacy and compromise. When this approach doesn’t
work, however, Librans are not above using their persuasive charms to get their
way. Manipulative? Nah, Librans really are too nice for that. Plus, any end-runs
that these folks use are usually to build themselves up, since the Scales can be
easily deterred. Librans are polite and don’t like to fight, far preferring to
talk things through. Remember, these folks know how to communicate (they’re Air)
so they’re bound to make their point. Librans don’t get in a huff when faced
with an opposing viewpoint. Rather, they take a deep breath and consider all the
options in the spirit of cooperation.

Librans at play may not be as energized as at work, if
you call socializing work (and the Scales do). That’s why exercise for Librans
needs to have a social component to it, such as that found at a gym.
Alternatively, Librans love the outdoors, so riding and biking can also prove
fun. They also love the colors of the sunset sky, that melding of ivory, pink
and light blue. In the game of love, Librans are a bundle of energy, romantic
and loyal to the core. The Scales need to be on the lookout for their lower
backs, though, which tend to shoulder any burdens they may be carrying.

The great strength of the Libra-born is their quest for fairness, peace and
harmony. That the Scales are the great diplomats of the Zodiac further helps
their case. A beautiful journey this will be, thanks to the Libran’s inimitable
sense of style.

[If you are interested, get this from http://astrology.gurl.com/]

And I’m getting 2 birds with 1 stone with this pisces piece. So, here’s to Dada and Muqri.

Pisces is the twelfth Sign of the Zodiac, and it is also the final Sign in the
Zodiacal cycle. Hence, this Sign brings together many of the characteristics of
the eleven Signs that have come before it. Pisceans, however, are happiest
keeping many of these qualities under wraps. These folks are selfless, spiritual
and very focused on their inner journey. They also place great weight on what
they are feeling. Yes, feelings define Pisceans, and it’s not uncommon for them
to feel their own burdens (and joys) as well as those of others. The intuition
of the Pisces-born is highly-evolved. Many people associate Pisceans with dreams
and secrets, and it’s a fair association, since those born under this Sign feel
comfortable in an illusory world.

It’s a pair of Fish that represents Pisceans, a symbol which prompts others
to suggest that these people ‘go with the flow’ and ‘don’t make waves.’ Both of
these labels are true, since Pisceans are fluid and easy-going, in keeping with
the Mutable Quality assigned to this Sign. The fact that two fish (as opposed to
one) represent the members of this Sign also speaks to the duality of Pisceans,
their yin and yang sensibility. Pisceans alternate between reality and
non-reality in keeping with their introspective natures; their voyage between
consciousness and an unconscious dream state says much about their intuitive,
almost psychic natures. For this reason, Pisceans can be hard to pin down,
prompting some to call them the chameleons of the Zodiac. The Fish are happy to
be considered hazy, since there’s a certain sense of safety in that
self-proclaimed netherworld. That said, they won’t stay away for long, since one
of their primary goals is to help others. Pisceans are compassionate, charitable
and will quickly put the needs of others ahead of their own. It’s this kind of
self-sacrifice which keeps these folks going. The flip side to their giving
natures is that oft-timid Fish are likely to be taken advantage of by less
well-meaning souls.
Pisces is ruled by the Planets Jupiter and Neptune. In ancient Roman mythology,
Jupiter (the original ruler of Pisces) was the king of the gods, while Neptune
was the ruler of the seas. When Neptune was discovered in recent times, it was
attached to this Sign. The pairing of these two heavenly bodies results in some
unique energies being directed toward Pisceans here on Earth. Those born under
this Sign are spiritually oriented and charitable. They are compassionate,
easily feeling another’s pain. At times, however, Pisceans can have difficulty
distinguishing fact from fantasy: they tend to get caught up in their dreams and
views of how things should be. To say they wear rose-colored glasses isn’t much
of a stretch. Pisceans who fear that their pleas aren’t being heard tend to
lapse into melancholy and, worse, the kind of pessimism which leads to
procrastination and lethargy. At times like this, Pisceans are well-served to
take some time for themselves, the better to find their center once again. Many
Pisceans also immerse themselves in the arts and other creative pursuits as a
centering mechanism, and they are quite talented in these areas.

The Element associated with Pisces is Water. Those born under this Sign
easily relate to the emotional and unpredictable nature of this liquid gold.
Pisceans feel a great deal, and they also feel misunderstood much of the time.
They’re not quite pushovers, but they’re certainly sensitive. Yes, they could
cry you a river if the circumstances were right. Even so, they revel in their
compassionate and imaginative natures and love to cater to others. They can also
be quite romantic, dreaming up delicious treats for their lover. Hopefully, any
kindness will be reciprocated, because the Fish can certainly turn blue if
they’re not. Pisceans are generally gentle, easy-going folk, who are on the shy
and reticent side. They are modest to the point of impracticality, often
stepping up only to show their talents in painting or music. Easiest for the
Fish (and still great fun) is living in their lush dream world.
More relaxation for the Fish comes in the way of sports, specifically water
sports. Pisceans love to swim, and it’s this easy glide in a pool or the sea,
which serves to alleviate much of their stress. Once their mind is at ease, the
Fish are well-advised to focus on their feet, a frequent source of discomfort.
Soothing comfort does come in a world colored in purple and soft white. When it
comes to the game of love, Pisceans are caring and romantic and a most creative
mate.

The great strength of the Pisces-born is their compassionate and charitable
nature. These folks love to help others and do so in the most imaginative of
ways. It’s their feeling sensibility that wins people over.

A blessing

Ok. Friday comes again. I’m taking a half day leave today, so will be in office until lunch time, only. YIPPIEE!!

Nadia, Muqri and me will be going south this afternoon. Nadia even took a day leave. haha..She’s been cramming herself (oh, let me rephrase that), her boss has crammed her with lots and lots of assignments and on top of that, handling a triple dozen programmes. Hehe..Good old Nadia, learned Town Planning for 5 years (both Dip & Degree!) and end up coordinating training programmes for what, nearly 2 years now? Hehe..

OK! Back to the three hour trip to south ~ ~
Erm..The car will be packed again. This time, with prizes!!! Dah macam santa’s sledge pulak!

Hana is having her akad nikah tonight!!! Congrats, dear. Huh, I bet she will look remarkably elegant in her nikah dress and azhan a.k.a. itique will be at his most handsome moment tonight! Congratulations, both of you!

Norizah is getting married tomorrow! Congrats as well! I’ll be there.. So is Ain’s sister, Qema. Hers will be on Sunday. Masdilaila as well. Congrats all..

For all of you who are getting married this weekend, here is a famous Irish blessing;

May God be with you and bless you.
May you see your
children’s children.
May you be poor in misfortunes and rich in
blessings.
May you know nothing but happiness from this day
forward.

60-40

I’ve had my Wednesday nights blocked. Especially for Six Degrees and Grey’s Anatomy. The highlight of yesterday’s series of Six Degrees, I think, was when Damian returned the picture Caseman wanted so badly from Ray. And Caseman asked his son, Max to hang it at his mother’s bedroom, exactly like the way it used to be before he took it down to ask Ray sell it for him. It’s true, most of the things we value best does not actually cost us a fortune. Like Caseman, it was that picture he took of his ex-wife looking at Max for the first time. It was a beautiful picture. For Laura, it was that picture Ray gave her; a proof that Ray was actually David’s friend. She has been looking for any evident that shows that Ray is truly David’s friend, since he never told her about Ray. That look on her face when she see the picture, it was the truth she has doubt. I understand that feeling. When you have doubts over things and suddenly truth peeks in, what a relieve..

In Grey’s Anatomy, there was a patient, Daniel. He was Daniel then, but he decided that he wanted to become a woman, Donna. Donna came with her wife for a penis removal operation. The wife seemed reluctant, but she was there to support Donna. Right before the operation, Sloan told them that the hormones Donna had been taking had caused her breast cancer, and that the operation would be meaningless. The hormones should be stopped or else, she’d lose her life. But Donna insisted on becoming a woman afterall. She said, she’d fight the cancer, as a woman. [Note: I'm not saying that I'm supporting this subject, but I like what I learn from this situation] Her wife went away, disagreeing with her. Obviously, she doesn’t want to see her husband (Donna, Daniel then) suffer. For Donna, she has decided her own path. As much as she’s hurting her wife, but in the end, it was her life. She was willing to take the risk, the cancer was the sacrifice she made in order to be happy to be what she really wanted. As for her wife, she came back to Donna. Learning to accept her husband the way he/she is. Now, THAT is unconditional love. In relationship, it is never a fair trade (I learned this from Picoult). There is always the one who loves more. Donna’s relationship with her wife - The wife is the one who loves more. It’s ok to have a 40-60 kind of relationship. Or even 80-20, 90-10, as long as both parties are happy with that portion of their contribution to the relationship. People might say that it’s unfair, but it is more unfair of them to talk about your relationship. Now that I understand the concept, it is easier for me to accept everyone around me AND their relationship with their counter-parts. Who am I to say that they are not treating their friend, partner, husband, wife right. Only they can define their own relationship and their contribution towards it.

From that little boy who swallowed the pieces of monopoly (houses, dog, etc.), he said something remarkably true to Yang who said that his foolish action of swallowing the pieces would harm him. He replied, "At least, after this, I get to play,". Well, the brother wouldn’t let him play, so he swallowed the pieces over grudge. Saying that, "now, everyone don’t get to play". Sometime, children’s mind can amaze us. What is more amazing is that, ADULT adopt that exact mindset! Sometimes, in life, we do foolish things to achieve what we want. WHAT WE WANT. We didn’t think of those who might hurt with our action. Or whether our action would hurt ourselves. That boy is a reality. That is how reality is. Mean, but that’s the truth. There are a lot out there, who copies the boy’s behavior - if I don’t get it, no one else will get it. Selfish. But in some cases, that little act of selfishness reward us. Like the boy, the mother will surely make his brother let him play. It’s just that, we have to be smart to make a decision like that. Smart enough to plan, brave enough to face the consequences.

All in life is not a fair square. There are things in life that we can do fair to. But, there are also things that we can’t help be fair. I have learned it the hard way. But I am accepting it, slowly, bit by bit…
  

In these small hours

8 LASTS:
8. last cigarette: I saw was at this kedai makan, there was a couple and the girlfriend was rather crossed seeing that her boyfriend bought a box of it.
7. last beverage: Carrot Juice (VeGood). I’ve decided that Marigold’s one is better than VeGood.
6. last phone call: Mak. Yesterday, we gossiped. Haha.. My mom the gossiper.
5. last text message: "OK" a reply to En Shah’s "Cuti hari ni".
4. last cd played: Does Barbie DVD counts? hehe.. I watched a whole lot of it.
3. last bath: 6.45am
2. last time you cried: yesterday..feeling a lil bit down. Then, I played this game on Jun’s PC and winning 1 level boost up my endorphin level. hehehe..
1. last meal: nasi kukus with nadia, for dinner.

SEVEN have you’s:

7. have you ever dated someone twice?
    ~ twice, thrice, I’ve dated him many times and it will continue like that for the rest of my life. Hehehhe…

6. have you ever been cheated on?
    ~ Not in my knowledge. Behind me knowing, maybe ada..

5. have you ever hugged someone & regretted it?
    ~ I hug good friends only!! hehehe..

4. have you ever fallen in love?:
    ~ love is in the air ~

3. have you ever lost someone?:
    ~ yup..

2. have you ever been depressed?
    ~ I had my moments… Thanks to friends who were there to build me up again. I owe it to Diana, Fiza, Gee, Lydia & Dada..

1. have you ever peed your pants?
    ~ kecik2 dulu, mesti la ada…hehehe..

SIX things you did in the past six days:
~ working during weekends
~ welcoming zulaifah
~ watching colorful, salt-water fish swimming away in large, beautiful, luxurious tanks.
~ Receive Amelia Jane by post! Magnificent!
~ ate kari ikan and get a fish bone stuck in my throat
~ had a loooooong tete-a-tete with nadia. It felt sooo good. Thanks, Nad! =)

list FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to –
~ ain
~ kak gee
~ muq
~ lydia

list THREE favorite colors.
~ purple in a shade of lilac and lavender
~ pink in a shade of nadeshiko and pale
~ pastel green

list TWO things you want to do before you die
~ hugs & kiss all that I love - it’s my last parting gift.
~ leave my loved ones good memories of me

Made a new friend?
~ Yes. Kak Umairah and Mr Ishaaq from UIA. It was nice talking to them.

laughed until you cried?
~ last time I had was with Alan, when he impersonated that scene from wakenabeb.

Gotten close to someone?
~ i’m keeping my distance at the moment, only for limited excess (for those I trust only)

Found out who your true friends were?
~ I have my list. and it’s precious!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF

1. Bush…
- His heart is contaminated, I guess.

2. Gay Marriage?
- None of my business. It’s their life, they can do as they please.

3. Lowering the drinking age?
- and get more people get sick at younger age. ermm..

4. Straight, Gay, Bi?
- "your choices, your action, YOUR life"

6. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- I don’t believe it, but my other half fell for me at first sight. So..I might as well half-believe it. Hehhe.

7. Is there something you want to tell someone?
- Yes. I’d write it here, but it will come up as very disturbing piece. hehe..

9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- on cheek, anytime..

10. How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?
- All of them la. Good heart they have.

11. How many kids do you want to have?
- I don’t mind the figure if I can deliver all of them at once. Hahaha..

12. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- pretty much ok..mlm ni my mom will call again and we will gossip again. hahahaha..

13. Do you wanna change your name?
- I like it as it is.

15. What time did you wake up today?
- 6.30am, when the alarm goes off. but I lingered a bit. hahaha.

16. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- talking to nadia..Hehe..isn’t it a wonder how we can talk and talk even when we are sleepy. hehe.

17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?
- Read Sophie Kinsella. Borrowed from Nad.

18. Last time you saw your father?
- Erm..quite sometime now..

19. Who is most likely talking behind your back right now?
- Quote like i care! unquote. Dada, 2007. hehehehe..may someday they learn that the world is ROUND and it will surely come back at them. Fancy talking bad things about me. hahaha.

20. Which part do you like better on the opposite sex?
- eyes

21. What are you listening to right now?
- azan berkumandang di udara tika ini

22. Have you ever talked to Tom?
- tom cat at my house.

23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause?
- alhamdulillah..

24. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back?
- hahahaha..and I do realize that it will come back at me! ahahha..

25. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?
- my mom’s headscarf. Hehhe..

26. Who’s getting on your nerves right now?
- some insignifcant peeps. Huh!

27. Most visited webpage?
- Friendster and wikipedia and yahoo.

29. Coke or Pepsi?
- I have my routine with coke. Open up the can, put it in fridge for at least 12 hours so that it will lose the gas a bit. Hehhe..I have to do that or I’d end up with bloating tummy.

30. Do you have a crush?
- no..

31. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past 2 weeks?
- virtually, millions of it. Hehehe..

32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world?
- Nah..it has it ways..Let it be..

34. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends?
- Yes. of course. TQ.

Spur of the moment

William Shakespear once said, I had rather have a fool make me merry, than experience make me
sad.
 

I’m in one of those mood where things seem bleak and gloomy. I don’t like it even a bit, but somehow, part of me want to go down under and stay.

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~ Amelia Jane has reached me safe & sound! ~

Saturday, 19th May 2007.
To those who are celebrating their birthdays, anniversaries, etc..hope you have a good day today, and wish you health and happiness in your present and future life.

As for me.. I was dreading waking up this morning. I dreamt that my alarm had gone off and I ignored it and kept sleeping and I woke up, thinking that I’ve overslept! Only to find out that it was only 4.42 in the a.m. What a nightmare. I took my shower at around 8.20am and prepared to leave the house to pay bills. I reached here at  about 10am. Here, working. On Saturday.

But there is no sigh-ing today!! Because earlier, while I was waiting for Muq, I slid my hand into the little opening of the already-stucked letter-box and reached out for a yellow envelope. (uh-oh! I forgot to tell the MRCB people to get it fixed! I knew I’ve forgotten something..I’m still mad at whoever it is that knocked my letter box until it’s stucked.) Anyway, you see..I’ve always like receiving something through snail mail. So, the half-inch thick envelope I received this morning really make my heart dances. It was from Fadhilah. All the way from Germany! I was beaming with joy and I can still feel the excitement now, when I opened it and see Amelia Jane!!!!!
[Note to Fadhilah: You have make my day!! That is the sweetest thing... I never thought I'll be reading another Amelia Jane.]

Amelia Jane..She surely brings back memories. And to receive it from a dear friend, it’s priceless. Thanks, Fadh!!! =)

Amelia20janeI’m overwhelmed by Fadhilah’s thoughtful act.. May you will always be in good health and showered with loves and happiness,dear..

Let Me Leave..

It has been very calm these past few days. Serene as I wish it could be. The idea of working on Saturday and Sunday does not seems so bad, now. Muq will be busy discussing some things with his friends, so I will have to spend time alone at home. So, working seems ok.


RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "I CAN’T DO THIS!!"YOU SAY?
:: Everything (M.Buble).
   = Hehe..At least I try!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
:: Do I Make You Proud (T.Hicks)
   = Hmm…I guess..that’s what I am after, afterall. Trying to make my family and friends proud of me.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
:: Sunrise (N.Jones)
    = Sunrise means a new day, a new hope. There’s always hope in people. That’s what I like best.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
:: Could I Have This Kiss Forever (W.Houston & E.Iglesias)
    = Mushy mushy. Well, so far, tak sempat lagi nak mushy mushy. Maybe later this evening. Hah!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
:: Everytime I close My Eyes (Babyface)
    = Everytime I close my eyes, I’m dreaming of a better tomorrow. Hahaha. To love and be loved ~~~

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
:: Hujan (A.Noor)
   = Cooling and refreshing. But don’t mess with me, or I’ll turn into a storm.  Hahaha.. See, I’m trying to make every song meaningful. Haha..

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
:: Sesuatu Janji (T.Batishah)
    = Am I? I hope I am a good promise, then.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
:: Life Is A Rollercoaster (R.Keating)
    = Aaahh..It’s an exciting ride! Thanks mak & ayah!! Love you lots! =)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
:: Can’t Take My Eyes Of You (L.Hill)
    = Mr Muqri!! Hahhaa..Poor you, with gastric and all..Have a good rest today ya!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
:: All My Life (K-Ci & Jojo)
    = I hope you will be there for all my life, girls..I meant it, with every beat of my heart. You know who you are! This song goes to YOU! I meant it. If you are reading this, then you are a good friend, spending time to read my ramblings. Thanks! =)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
:: Together Again (J. Jackson)
   = Esp. to Lydia, Dada, Fadhilah and Laily, hope we will be together again!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
:: Everything (M.Buble)
    = It’s the same as the first one! I even cheated by pressing "next" twice, but the same song appears! It is meant to be this way, then. My life is just about everything under the sun. Colorful and full of surprises. Love and hate. Happy and sad. It’s everything anyone can think of.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
:: Sway (PCD)
    = sway to the music of life ~~~ That’s exactly what I intend to do.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
:: Goodbye My Lover (J.Blunt)
    = Wasey! No, I didn’t mean it…! Come Back!

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
:: Hadapi Dengan Senyuman (Dewa)
   = Probably what they will say to me. I know they love me.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
:: Everything (M.Buble) - AGAIN!
    = I’ll definitely play this song on my wedding day!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
:: Kryptonite (3 Doors Down)
    = Hahhaha. I had a big laugh when I hear this. I’m the superman who defeated by the kryptonite. Cool. I’m a superman.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
:: Killing Me Softly (Fugees)
    = Erk. No…I have no intention of killing anyone.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
:: Hujan (A.Noor)
    = Hahaha..I have only a few songs in the list, shuffle pun, dapat tu je. Hujan yang lebat in the middle of the nite and I’m all alone. It may not be the biggest fear, but I’m afraid.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
:: This Ain’t A Love Song (B.Jovi)
    = Hehehe..It was not love (on my previous relationships). Enough said.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
:: Torn (N. Imbruglia)
    = My relationship with a couple of them was torn by distrust and misunderstanding, and unhealthy competition (she thought I was competing with her, but she’s the one competing in her own battle, with herself). Too bad..they were good friends.

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST THIS?
:: Izinkan Ku Pergi (Kaer)
   = Izinkan ku pergi membawa diri..To continue my work. Hehe..

Lifeless

Dada is right. I like answering the survey in my blog. Hehhee…I have to work this weekend. 9am-5pm. I just got the news. I’m venting my frustration through this survey. Hahaha…Peace on Earth!

01.What does your shout out mean?
- "Whatever
we are waiting for - peace of mind, contentment, grace, the inner
awareness of simple abundance - it will surely come to us, but only
when we are ready to receive it with an open and grateful heart." Sarah
Ban Breathnach
"

It simply means, we only get what we want when we are reay for it. God has his way to tell. He only gives it when we are ready to accept it. We might want it and think we are ready, but if it does not happen yet, it means, we are not ready for it.

02.
What does your default photo mean?
- it’s a doodle I made. It was supposed to be a ladybird. I used it when Ithink, I’m in mess. Haha..At least, my home is! and now, I can’t clean it during the weekend because I have to work!

03. Who is the first person on your top6?
- Missy Lydia. The Lydia with a good advice. As good as Missy Dayda in her analysis. If I ever open up an investigation firm, I’d hire them on the dot. Laku wo..

04. What’s your current status?
- In Relationship..and loving every bit of it! =)

05. What exactly are you wearing right now?
- Ok..You asked for it..In every meticulous detail I can offer.(with a few exception) Pale pink sandal, black slack, pale salmon pink blouse, pale pink+cheery blossom pink+white headscarf, a garfield watch, pink bracelet with hotpink+pink+brown beads and "the ring".

06. What’s your current problem?
-  ~ at ease ~ other than having to work on weekends. Haha..

07. Do you have a Date on this fine day?
- very much indeed. With a bunch of people. Learning about the six degrees theory and joining in the commotion in a hospital. =)

08. What makes you the happiest?
- Cool weather like this. And knowing that the people I love, love me. That is a bliss.

09. Have you ever met anyone from friendster?
- Most of my friends in the list are the ones I know before friendster even exist! I carefully chose who I want to be friends with now. Met a few b*tches back then. Even become one myself. Huh! Reality check. I didn’t like it. But..it’s an experience. Thanks to those peeps who taught me. Haha. I don’t like it, still.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- Sleeping la. And later suffering the after effect of early rest in bed. I woke up at 5.20am and feel extremely awake - that I close my eyes and wait for the alarm to goes off. Haha..

11. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
- Nothing. Dada is absolutely right on this. The past has taught me a lot. I’m wiser now. Hah!

12. What are your nervous habits?
- Back  in school, I got nervous on exam days. I will sit quietly in one corner and just nod and shake my head to friends’ questions. When I’m nervous, I just stay quiet. I refuse to speak.

13. Ever had a near death experience?
- Once, I had an asthma attack when I was young. I thought I was dying! It turned out ok. It’s gone now. Maybe in dormant. It’s in my gene you know. If you have it in your earlier years, you probably will not have it during your mid years. But, it may come back on the later years of your life. Among all my sibs, only Dollah doesn’t have it. The middle-child has ALWAYS being different.

14. Name an obvious asset you have?
- I won’t trade my family, closest friends and myself for anything else in this world. hehe…very ms world-like.

15. What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your mind right now?
- EVERYTHING by M.Buble. I love it the moment I first hear it on Mix.FM. Nice lyrics, and it even rhymes! "You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well". I have a thing with rhymes.

16. Any celeb you would marry?
- If Mr Bloom asks for my hand in marriage, I’d say yes this instance! Hehhe..I shouldn’t have said that. Nah..I’ve already have a wonderful man. I couldn’t ask for more.

17. Who will cut and paste this first?
- uuuhh..this is hard. If I was the one to post this on the bulletin board, maybe Dada will do it, maybe lydia. But, since Dada did it first, I don’t see anyone else.. Well..maybe Mr Muq will do it..If he has time to spare.

18. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- The perfectionist, Mr Abdul Hamediee Ibrahim. an addition, Zira’s mom. She’s an angel. Always making me eat even if I was there dropping by for a quick visit.

19. Do you have a crush on someone?
- Dulu ada la.. But, I get nothing out if it la.. I have learned that only the beauty gets the guys. Hehe..

20. Have you ever vandalized someones private property?
- I have no intention to do that. I wouldn’t want other people doing it to my things.

21. Have you ever been dumped?
- Twice! Thank you.. =) I’m happier now.

22. Have you ever sung in front of a large group?
- and nothing comes out of my mouth! Hahahahahhahah.

23. What’s the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
- Smile. and I happened to get a guy who is not too fond of smiling. Hehhe..But he’ll smile for me..Aren’t you, darling? Forgive my mushy-ness (again)

24. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
- In all of my 24 years, I’ve only went there once. Had an ice-blended choc and thought it was not as what I expected. I can even get a better ice-blended choc with a cheaper price in Bangi and Batu Pahat.

25. What does your 4th text message you sent say?
- My phone is soooo classic that it doesn’t have a sent item. I don’t remember what the 4th message that I sent say.

26. What does your last received text say?
- "OK". From Mr Muq. I told him that I accidently doze off while sms-ing him the other night. hehehe…My 643th sorry for the same reason. Hehe..

27. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
- Takde la..Why would I want to hurt myself? I was never that depressed.

28. Say something totally random about you?
- I’ve hit 40 in the weight dept. Hehe..

29. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
- Yes, a couple of people. They have weird eyes, I guess. I don’t see any resemblance. But, Muq made a celebrity look-alike with my photo and I must say, out of 4 celebrities, I score more percent with a Japanese celebrity (I don’t remember her name). I scored 2 Japanese, 1 Chinese and Whitney Houston. Hahaha. It has to be Whitney’s smile that match mine. hahhaa. I must say..I still have the Chinese gene running through my vein..

30. Do you do karaoke?
- No..I suck at singing. You don’t want to hear me sing.

31. Do you listen to System of a Down?
- Heard of it…Hehe..But I’m clueless.

32. What is the closest thing to you?
- Like what? Object? It has to be these papers, pc, a tissue box, stationery, books. Hahaha. so many, huh? The closest thing to me is my loved ones. 

33. Do you have anything pierced?
- Ear Lobes. But rarely had anything on them.

34. Do you eat fish?
- Must have fish. I miss my mom’s Ikan Sumbat!!! Aiyo!

35. Do you like pain?
- No. Why would I like pain?

36.Do you like to shop?
- I prefer shopping when I don’t have to pay for it. Now that I have to pay for my own expenses, shopping brings a whole new meaning to it.

37. Whose bed did you last sleep in?
- Under that thick, cottony-soft comforter of mine.  Aaaaahhhh….. I’m sleeping under it again tonight, and the night after that, and the night after that…

38. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?
- I don’t have a credit card. and I don’t date anyone with a credit card at the moment. So, I guess, nothing bought by a credit card so far, in my case.

39. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Kak Nita. Me asking about this year’s Convo.

40. What is the background on your desktop?
-
green with ladybirds on it.

~ Fuzzy ~

100_0938   

 I LOVE U!

Feeling all lovey dovey today… Please excuse my mushy-ness.

You’re a falling star, You’re the get away car.
You’re the line in the sand
when I go too far.
You’re the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You’re
the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it’s kinda
cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don’t
pretend, that you don’t know it’s true.
Cause you can see it when I look at
you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy
times
It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.
You’re every line, you’re
every word, you’re everything.

You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing
well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You’re a mystery, you’re
from outer space,
You’re every minute of my everyday.

And I can’t
believe, uh that I’m your girl*,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I
can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we’ll see it through,
And you know that’s
what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through
these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing
You’re every line,
you’re every word, you’re everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La,
La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life,
and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.
You’re
every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.
You’re every song, and I
sing along.
Cause you’re my everything.
yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La,
La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La,

{M.Buble: Everything}

P/S: I love you, again! and again and again and again…

M.O.N.D.A.Y

1. If you could do something rite now, what is it?
> Reading Jodi Picoult, OR get back home and take my clothes off the clothes-line. It’s about to rain again!!

2. If you are upset, what makes ur life hard these days?
> Working from 8.30 - 5.30 / 5.45 and beyond. Hey! I’m not exaggerating, ok! At the moment, ok la..But wait till the students comes back for the classes. Or, it could be the "must-have-money-in-order-to-achieve-something" policy that the world today demands.

3. If someone u love is right beside u, what do u wanna say?
> stay like this forever, would you…? I want to be love by you everyday, for the rest of my life.

4. If your days lightened, what made u happy yesterday?
> splurging on wedding gifts for my friends! and  buying something  else (at last..). Yeay!

5. If you could change your destiny, what do u wanna change in your life?
> IF…I wouldn’t mind put a little more determination and the smart factor in me. Hehe.

6. If tomorrow’s gonna be another good day, what do u wanna do?
> off traveling somewhere! On the cheaper budget, read another Jodi Picoult or Judith McNaught.

7. If the world hear u, what do u wanna say??
> erm…I have a lot to say la. Among them is "STOP KILLING EACH OTHER!!"

8. If there’s no tomorrow, what u gonna do?
> Woaaah..That’s a lot of things to do: Meet all good friends and hug them goodbye, be with my family and tell them that I love them and pray for forgiveness and happiness in the Hereafter. Oh, yeah! Get married - because I want him to be a family..

9. If nobody cares for you, what will u do?
> I agree with Lydia, If all fails, come back to yourself. Me, taking care of myself.

10. If u accidentally murder someone, do u consider urself as a criminal?
> I don’t wish to be in that situation, thank you.

11. If u can kiss one person in this world, who’d that be?
> only those that I love la. Why would I want to kiss somebody who is not important in my life..?

12. If u go to a fortune teller, what do u wanna ask her?
> Will I die happy? Wil I serve the world well? Does my family and friends know that I love them? Will Muqri be with me on the day I die? [aaahhh..so many questions to ask]

13. If you know that ur crush like u too, will u tell him/her how u feel?
> I may give hints. If he understand the hints, then he’s worth of me. If he don’t, why bother being in a relationship with a "wood"? or I’d say, "I like being with you" or "I like when you are around". Hehe..

14. If there’s only one person who cares for u, who u want it to be?
> uuuhh..this is hard. I have some on my mind for every aspects of my life. Hehe..To summarize it, it should be my loves. [My Loves is read as my family, close friends and en Muqri lah].

15. If you have no where to live, where do u wanna go?
> Back to Batu Pahat, ding dong that peach wall and wait for my bro to open the gate.

16. If u’re lost in the wild, what will u do?
> urm..probably cry first, then when the emo runs get my head together and think of a way to get out of it while trying to send telepathic signals to my family or friends to save me.

18. If you could go somewhere, where’d u go?
> Heaven =) new zealand or scotland would be nice also - for the scenery.

19. If u r asked to sing with a band, which band do u wanna join?
> S Club 7. hahaha..I’ll be the cutest one. Singing and dancing and acting on our own tv show, and going places. Is S Club 7 a band? hehe..

20. If this nite never ends, who do u wanna spend this nite with?
> hehe..various people for various reasons. Kak Gee for funny stories and animation, Ain for a heart to heart talk. Lydia for some solicited advice. Syiefa to take photographs of the endless night. Nadia to keep the TV company (haha..she is really stuck to tv lagi2 musim AF ni). Dada for analysing and processing the night. Muqri for some cuddling and lots of love. Hehe..this statistic shows that I need more than one person to make me happy and alive. And I’m loving it!