“sehr sub”

It is hard to define my feelings now. All mixed up and I haven’t found word or words to describe it. Whether it’s an english word or BM. Or any other language of my own.

Despite the 10 things to be crossed off before I go home tonight, I’ve been thinking of:-
1. The kitten that I wanted so badly has been sold. (Feeling: disappointed BIG time!)
2. Going to the book fair this weekend. Hoping can find good books to read. Yippee! (Feeling: that’s hoping happiness)
3. Having chichi at home (again). My parents decided that it’s best if I keep chichi at home. I’m crossing my fingers that he has finally learned to behave. I’d rather have miaw a.k.a. stokin with me. haha. (Feeling: how do you call the feeling of me sighing- heavily?)
4. I have to go to tonight’s Award Night. I was soooooo looking forward of not being invited and then suddenly came Muha bringing the ticket for me. Arrrghh.. (Feeling: disliking level 9 - I hate doing things that I don’t want to do)
5. My friends getting married.(Feeling: Excited. Later I’ll see kids of my friends’ running around my house on MY wedding day. Haha. Such imagination). Another phase of life that God-knows-when my time will come. My mom just called talking about buying things and early preparation and me being selfish by asking for a loan for my studies. Yes. I will now need not to worry about my studies (this is supposed to be Point 6) because I have found the monetary source.
6. My studies. Again, another burden lift off my skinny shoulder (it WILL get skinner in future time - not suffering from anorexia, Debts can also be a good diet regime nowadays). (Feeling: RELIEF in capital letters). So, I will use what is supposed to be mine from the soon-but-not-too-defined marriage. Hehe..Cheeky. Muq will surely be mad at me when he reads this. [I love you more if you help me settle the debts, honey..hehe..joking. Yes..yes..I'll clean my own mess, I know..].
7. Lydia and her new life. Well…I really wish her the best! =) Pretty excited for her as well. Enough said - before she smacks me in the head. Hahaha.
8. Dada and her new life (as well). She’s coming about..and she’s soaring high..Congrats on the new job as well, da..You are the champion, my friend..(sing it in that tune).
9. I apologize to all my friends for not informing you of my engagement. It’s not a big deal. The reason we kept it down is because of the extended question of "Bila nikah/majlisnya/kawin?" Seriously guys, we DON’T know. We haven’t decided the date (yeah, I know, I’ve been talking about goals should have dateline etc and bla bla. I’m not a good role model la. What more, a counselor. Worry not. It won’t be for long. Haha. My nonsense rambling. Ok. Back to apologizing. I am truly sorry. I’m listing down the guest names at the moment. Just to make sure that I didn’t left anyone out. So, YOU WILL be invited. No worries ya. We will design it that the card will reach you a month before the occasion (which we haven’t know the date, yet).
10. Get my car fixed. Of the mysterious leakage she has. Yes, it’s a she. Hehe. And I’ll definitely send her for a good wash afterwards. Or, I, myself will bathe her - next to the garbage house in front of Kak Ina Tassa’s apartment. Hehe..
11. Pay bills. House rent, utility bill. Buy groceries. (Feeling: Not too excited about it).
12. My lucky friends getting married and going to great places for honeymoon. Aaaahhh…Such lucky girls. Going places.. I love travelling. I like it even more if it’s not related to work.
13. Yesterday. What happened yesterday? Hehehe.. Muq and me accompanied Farid and his pretty fiancee shopping for their wedding. It’s a bliss to shop. It’s better if we can shop with other’s money. hahaha. Lucky her to have Farid. Congrats guys - They are getting married in 3 months time. And we don’t get to join them for the wheels tonight…Too bad.. I have enjoyed their company.
14. Pursuit of Happyness and Who Moved My Cheese? I’m now stumbling upon little cheese to munch on. To keep me going. This is the little happyness to keep me smiling through the rough time. Alhamdulillah…
15. Hana, Norizah and Qema. Congratulations on your wedding (subsequently la kan). We’ll be doing some shopping for you guys! Yeay! Shopping! (Even if it’s for others. The therapy keep me sane). Hana, I’ve found something that I HOPE will make you beam with happiness. Hehe. (Feeling : Excited. Say YES to shopping). Norizah…I hope you’ll like what we’ll give you..

Uh, I’m out of things to write. haha. It feels great to put it into words that can be read. My head is lighter.

Have a good day, everyone! =)

Hehe..I just knew how to insert picture. Hahaha. Was laughing my head off last night. And I knew someone else was laughing at me as well. Hahaha, anyway, thanks dear for teaching me how to insert picture. Patut la asyik complain tak nampak gambar. Funny.

Well, since I’ve already knew how to do it. Let me share with you the loveliest and my most favorite piece of my aunt’s creative hand-made thingy for my engagement. Anyone who’s interested, may call me. She gives good service and mematuhi apa sahaja yang anda perlukan. Hehe. It’s modern, yet conventional. I chose the flowers!! Me, good at choosing flowers. Hahaha..Angkat bakul.

Spell your name without E,S,H,I,M,A.L: • rf
Are you single?: • in a wonderful relationship looking towards living happily ever after
What’s your favorite number?: • 5
Favorite color?: • vintage purple (whatever it means)
Least favorite color?: • grey (but it can be nice sometimes)
What are you listening to right now?: • don’t know the title of the song
Sin?: • every now and then
Are you happy with your life right now?: • i want it to be happy - happy it is!
What were/are your favorite subjects in school?: • biology
Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/AE?: • i shop anywhere. kedai apek pun boleh.
How do you make money?: • by working my ass off day and night *sigh*
Are you outgoing?: • depend on my mood
One word to describe you?: • pale (ust said I looked pale today)
Do you like Big Macs?: • Kak Gee loves big mac. I like big breakfast!
Do you own big sunglasses?: • yes - a nice one given to me by the ever-so-lovely perwiraku.
Where do you wish you were right now?: • at home melipat baju yg dibasuh semalam.
What should you be doing right now?: • at home melipat baju
Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: • no crushes. only longings. hahahha.

*THE DO’S*
Do you believe in God?: • Hanya pada yang Satu..
Do you know how to swim?: • theoritically yes.
Do you like roller coasters?: • i want to try it once. at least.
Do you own a bike?: • zaman sekolah dulu. with big basket.

*LOVE SECTION*
How many times have you had your heart broken?: • several times by a girlfriend. Once was her fault. The rest are my stupidity.
Have you ever broke up with someone and wished you hadn’t?: • no regrets
Are you in love?: • YES! In love and looking forward to that happily ever after life.
Have you ever liked someone with a g/f-b/f?: • yes. but he came on to me first! It’s not my fault!

*SELF ESTEEM SECTION*
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: • doing good now. thankfully.
Do you believe in yourself?: • I have to. Me is all I got (on some things la)
Do you wish you could be someone else?: • i’m happy being me.

*ABOUT MYSELF*
Hair color?: • black. boringly straight and black. TQ to my dad’s chinese gene I guess. Now I will never get to have that curly curly hair my mom has!
Piercings?: • a pair of them.
Tattoos?: • none

*HAVE YOU EVER*
Hugged someone you didnt know?: • I find it hard. I’m better at being hug rather than doing it.hehehe.
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: • nope. I need my sleep.
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: • no..

*THE LAST*
Person you talked to in person?: • en omar "nape tak cakap..saya tak pakai uniform.."
Time you had a shower?: • this morning: 7am
Person you hung out with?: • I love hanging out with ain back home ~~~
Last thing you said out loud?: • boring!!!
Last thing someone said to you?: • "yang ni" en omar on what he’s going to present for tonight dialogue session.

*RANDOM STUFF*
Do you like surveys?: • boring time like this, survey rocks! hahaha
What kind of shampoo do you use?: • head & shoulder
Do you have mental breakdowns?: • if I don’t get home by 10pm tonite, I might be having one! *sigh*

*CURRENT*
Mood: • not so good. can feel headache coming in
Hair: • lifeless
Desktop picture: • ladybirds with green background
Things in ur mind: • "I want to go home" repeated non-stop since 5.30pm tadi. The cute kitty I saw and the news that it has been sold. Suddenly feeling nausea and I believe waves of sadness is coming in and I will not be myself during the dialogue session tonight. UWAAAA…..

I WANT THIS!

Morning. Another morning. Another normal, routined morning.
I just got a sms from Muq telling me that he’s on mc today. It seems like he has been visiting doctors quite frequently, lately. Work burden really make human health deteriorates!

It has been a year of me going to and fro from my cosy little apartment to sometimes freezing office, almost everyday (yes, I meant it when I say everyday). A part of me are missing once I started my commitment here. Maybe that is what I have to pay for the good things I learned here. Sometimes, it seemed like I have not living the life I want, the nice life I once dreamt of. But sometimes, I experience miliseconds of deja vu moments - of the moments I have wished for.

Like when I drive home from work during dusk. Seeing that red-orangey sky and driving peacefully not over the speed limit when I have to rush, can put smile on my face. I’ve imagined that moment before. Maybe the image was so vivid that when it came true, I somehow felt amazed.

Deja Vu. It could also be the sunset that I watched from my car park. Or that breathtaking view from my apartment’s window. Or the fact that I have my own place where I keep it the way I want it. I haven’t done much about it, having hard time finding best time to decorate. But, I have tried.

And there are some pieces of my life that I never thought could be mine. Like the chance to experience dining in 5 star hotel. Like meeting huge personalities of Malaysia, both politician and entertainer. Like going back to earth in various camps (I hate camping). Like doing adventure things that I never thought I will do. Like being a counselor. Yes - it sometimes amazed me. I learned counseling, not the best in my class, but I sit rather comfortably on the marks scale - and yet, I never think I will be a counselor. Ok. Once. Only once I had the thought that I will be a counselor. Then En Razali came and shared me his thought, of me not being a counselor. A good point to ponder. I was never "social" enough to be one.  I was so aloof. I had hard time expressing myself, though I know I have high understanding of people’s feeling and able to see the big picture. Then, I settled down with new ambition. Maybe a trainer would do me good. I won’t have to always be a people person and with the additional knowledge and skills of people, I might be able to pull it off.

Here I am, a counselor. It has been a good experience. But I don’t see myself as a counselor for long. This is the piece called "Counselor". I have started imagining other pieces. Different pieces.

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I watched "Pursuit of Happyness" last Friday. I love that story. Excellent title. Nice presentation and the best thing is the moral of the story. Everyone is surely pursuing happiness.

I understand that along the journey of pursuing the best happiness, you will find few drops of little happiness to keep you going.  It is important not to be satisfied with only this little happiness. Or not to be discourage by the obstacle that comes after that.

I’m pursuing happiness in my own way. It may not be 100% correct, but I can always use some learning. I can see that my friends are doing it in their own way as well. May all of us stay on the track…

My room can tell my life story on its own. It was terrible. The messiest room around. My mom has decided to give more space to her own room and making my room as a store. Raihan didn’t do much about it. She actually add in more stuffs! As you enter, Raihan’s low-bed sits directly opposite the door. No feng-shui at all! Hehe..And when I home, my sleeping place would be in between Raihan’s and a huge basket of need-to-be-iron clothes and the ironing mat. My little cupboard of treasure is on the farthest end of my room (so far, that one need to only take 4 steps to reach it). I had my collection of favorite books & novels in there. The pages are all yellow and they smell like antique already. Comforting smell. I used to save my school pocket money so that I can buy those books. Most of it are R.L.Stine horror collection. I wonder how do I came to be a timid now. I used to read scary books, watched ghost movies (with lights off and alone!). My logic has gone hay-wire.

Next to the cupboard is my mom’s dresser mirror - where Raihan has put good use of it to throw whatever it is she feels like throwing there. Tissues - used & unused. Her toys, her stationery, her accessories, her everything is on the dresser table. Oh! Wait. There’s this little space between my cupboard and the dresser. She used it to put her book rack. Arranging the books on the rack means piling in on top of each other until they fall aside, to my dear little sister. Then, at the other corner of my room, the most valuable things in my life, I present boxes and boxes of my UNIMAS notes & books, gifts from friends, magazines, bags and soft toys. Hehe..I’m a collector. I appreciate my notes and I believe in keeping them for future use. So when Kak Gee asked for my help to find course outlines, I know I can dig it in one of the boxes. I don’t have enough space to display all gifts from friends. Since my house is a dust collector haven, I think it is better to keep it on boxes. Safe and fresh.

The biggest item in my room has to be the clothes cupboard. I had more that just clothes in it. Opening it is like opening the door to a marvelous adventure! I got t-shirts that I have ready for emergency outings (meaning = some one calls and ask me to join her outing on the dot), all ironed and hanged nicely. I had frames of pictures. One is my picture during matrix year and another one is a very "skema" picture of the eight most popular students in Bestari class. Hahahaha. All looking very goody-two-shoes. I believe we should take a recent picture and have it framed side by side so that we can see the BIG difference. Hehe..One can be shocked to death when seeing it. I had mugs given by friends. Sitting on one of the mugs is a white with purple flowers watch. It was my birthday gift from Nad. Still in good condition, but it has stopped ticking. On the upper compartment, sitting in the middle, is the "be a believer" bear. The day Lin bought it for me, we became victims of snatch thiefs at the back alley of SP. Fortunately, no one was harmed and thanks to Lin strong arms, nothing was stolen. We have screamed our lungs out, but nobody came to the rescue. Such an ignorant citizen! I kept the bear, even after the tragedy with our friendship. Because the bear reminds me of a good-hearted friend - once. If I stand on the tip of my toe, and reach out my hand, I can touch the tiara. The tiara sponsored by Dada’s mom & sis. It cost not more than RM10, but the value is truly worth millions of memory. I was crowned during the Reminiscence Night. Wearing a retro-like kebaya dress matched with black slack, I had Lydia’s heels on and Lydia’s black hugging shirt underneath my kebaya. Make-up by Lydia as well. The sach was sewn by Dada’s mom and I myself paste the wording. Hehe..Lydia, Dada and me prepared the gifts! I don’t even have to open the gift since I know what’s in it! Hehe. It was funny. Being crowned was nothing, the best memory was while we were preparing for the night. So I know what it’s like to be crowned as a prom queen. Another life experience gained.

For the finishing touch, we have to have cupboard for Raihan..Cupboards actually. I dare not open them as the contents will eventually falls on me like an avalanche!

It may be the messiest room in the house, but it hold many memories. Treasured memories of my childhood and teenage years. I can’t believe it has been 25 years. Almost, 25 years.

Had the chance to meet Mama last Friday (despite my apartment’s water tragedy - still suffering..). She gave me many words of wisdom. But the one I remember most (beside the toilet ethic) has to be "I believe in you" and "I’m proud of you" and the "not many of my students have the drive as yours. I know you can go far. I’ve seen you grow from a small and timid girl into someone with confidence. You will go far, arfah." She kept saying that she is proud of me and Kak Gee. She said that of all of the counseling batches, ours was her favorite - "..because I watched all of you grow..". I felt motivated by her words. She is such an inspiration. She said that I will go far. Gee will go far. "My students, of all, I can see you, Gee, Lin and Nora go far." It’s a great feeling to hear that from someone you respected. Thank you, Ma.. I’m hoping for the best.

Bie, that is why I said no to your offer, yesterday. This is my chance. I have waited too long for this. I will not wait any longer. I want to make it happen. I know you will be by my side =) (despite the ruthless offer!).

I want to soar..!

 *This is my version of "Cerita Penjual Tempe" that I said in the previous blog. As requested by Ms Fadhilah. It will be in BM since I read it in BM. Warning: It will not be in a good/correct karangan.Hehe.

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Tersebut kisah seorang makcik yang kerjanya menjual tempe. Hasil penjualan tempenya itulah yang menyara kehidupannya kerana makcik ini hidup sebatang kara. Makcik ini boleh la dikatakan kuat beribadah. Kehidupannya hanyalah merangkumi membuat tempe, menjualnya di pasar, balik ke rumah dan menghabiskan masa dengan beribadah.  Setiap pagi, makcik ini akan bangun awal untuk memasak tempe-tempe yang akan dijual di pasar.
Pada suatu hari, seperti biasa, makcik ini bangun awal untuk menyediakan tempenya. Malangnya, tempe yang dibuat masih lembik walaupun hari sudah semakin cerah. Dia perlu ke pasar sebelum matahari meninggi. Dalam keadaan panik, makcik ini berdoa kepada Allah. "Ya Allah, aku bermohon kepadaMu, agar tempe ini masak segera." Tidak putus dia berdoa agar tempenya masak. Setelah beberapa ketika, dia menekan-nekan tempe tersebut untuk melihat samada telah masak atau tidak. Namun, tempenya masih lembik. Maka berdoa lah dia lagi.."Ya Allah, aku adalah hambaMu yang tidak pernah lupa beribadah kepadaMu. Aku bermohon ya Allah, bantulah aku..Aku berdoa agar tempe ini masak". Namun, tempenya tetap tidak masak.
Apabila dilihat hari semakin cerah, makcik ini pun dengan hati yang penuh sedih, bertawakal kepada Allah. "Ah..dah lambat ni. Kena pergi pasar jugak ni. Kalau tak, tak makan lah aku hari ni. Takpe, dalam perjalanan, aku akan doa lagi. Aku  yakin, Allah akan bantu aku. Mana tau, boleh masak masa tengah jalan nanti." Maka, makcik tersebut membungkus tempe-tempe yang separuh masak tadi. Sepanjang perjalanan, dia berdoa agar tempe-tempenya masak apabila tiba di pasar kelak.Setibanya di pasar, cepat-cepat dia menyelak bungkusan tempenya. Air matanya menitik apabila dilihatnya tempe-tempenya masih lembik.
Hati makcik semakin sayu apabila sorang demi sorang penjual tempe yang lain membungkus barang untuk pulang. Tiada pelanggan yang mahu membeli tempe yang lembik! Namun, hatinya masih tidak putus-putus berdoa agar tempenya masak. Kejap-kejap dia menekan-nekan tempenye untuk merasa samada tempe dah masak ke belum. Namun, setiap cubaannya membuatkan dia hampa.
"Makcik, makcik ada jual tempe yang separuh masak tak?" Makcik tersebut mengangkat mukanya ke arah si penanya. Seorang perempuan dalam lingkungan 40-an tercegat di hadapannya. Dengan gembiranya, makcik ni menyahut, "Ada! Ada, nak! Berapa yang anak hendak?" Dalam hatinya, dia berkata, sekurang-kurangnya, ada juga pendapatannya hari ini. Bolehlah digunakan untuk makan nanti. "Erm, saya nak semua lah makcik." Semakin berbunga hati makcik tersebut mendengar jawapan wanita tersebut. "Semua? Boleh. Boleh," sambil dia memasukkan semua tempe ke dalam beg plastik. "Ni wangnya..Terima kasih. Susah betul saya nak cari tempe separuh masak. Dah nak balik dah. Makcik la yang last saya tanye." Kata wanita tersebut. "Erm..Boleh makcik tanya? Kenapa anak nak tempe separuh masak? Tak pernah orang beli tempe separuh masa." tanya makcik dengan penuh minat. "Makcik..anak saya baru berpindah ke Australia. Dia memang sukakan tempe. Saya ni, nak pos lah tempe pada dia. Kalau beli yang dah masak, takut-takut bila tiba di sana, dah buruk. Jadi, beli yang separuh masak, elok-elok sampai sana. Boleh disimpan lagi lama sikit." Jelas wanita tersebut.
Dengan rasa penuh kesyukuran, makcik tadi memanjat doa kepada Ilahi. Dia mula faham. Doanya agar tempenya masak tidak diperkenan Allah. Tetapi, Allah memberi ganjaran dari bentuk yang lain. Allah lebih mengetahui.

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What I understand from the story is that Allah the Almighty knows what is best for His fellow men. In that story, the lady didn’t get her wish, but it turn out that what she had wished for would not be able to help the customer.

Reflecting on my own life. There were so many times that I didn’t get what I wished for, what I prayed for. Not there and then lah. And there were times when I get what I wished for but I ended up feeling not so excited about it. I have understand that Allah has His own way of showing He cares and He knows what is best for me. Most of the time, in the end, everything goes into pieces - though it was not what I have planned before.

I am blessed. So are you. =)

"En Muqri Mohd Sofian, you may not be perfect, but I love you anyway."

ALL ARE INVITED TO COME! =)

Dear Friends (especially to ALL EX-TIGS-ian)

Please DO respond to me by giving me your current ADDRESS and FULL NAME so that the invitation card can be sent to you.

The Wedding Day: 26 May 2007
The Venue : Dewan Jubli Intan, Batu Pahat, Johor.
The Bride & Groom : Nurhana Abdul Ghapar & Azhan Azmi

To those non-TIGS-an who happen to know the bride and/or groom, you may also respond in the same way (by giving Full name & Address).

Your cooperation is very much appreciated.

Let us rejoice in the union of this sweet couple! =)

On behalf of the bride-to-be,
Arfah

My heart melts whenever someone says "I miss you". A bit of guilt as well. When people are missing me, I take it as I haven’t done quite enough for them. Hehe..Just my conscience. Nothing serious.

I MISS YOU, too.. FADHILAH!! =)

It’s nice when someone says that. I felt love. Thank you. I miss a lot of people as well. Damn, I miss my old self. Things have changed a lot. I miss the naiveity that I used to have in me. I sometime miss the aloofness I had.

Back to the people that miss me - it warmth my heart, knowing that people still care about me. That friends are still friends. I am so sorry that I’ve been too hooked up with my own world a.k.a my time-consuming-career. This is one of the reasons I wished for lots of money! Money is not everything, but it does generate things. I’ve realized that. Oh dear..

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I’m pretty blessed. Thank you. Alhamdulillah.
I’ve read this short story about penjual tempe and it has been in my mind for some time now. It taught me to be satisfied and thankful with what I’ve been given. I believe that when we pray for something, God is listening and He’s doing something about it. It may not turn out to be exactly what we want, but it’ll turn out fine. Because He knows better than any of us.

I’m blessed with good family. Well, pretty stressed with my parents, for being pushy sometimes - but that’s what they do best. They only want the best for me. I know.. My brothers and sister can sometimes irritate me to the max, but they are the ones who’ll be there for me. I used to yell a lot at them. Haha.. My aunties sometimes implant "ideas" into my mom’s mind - I don’t like that, because then, my mom will get very anxious and start thinking about weird things. Haha..But, I know, they are all just worry for me. Thank you, my dearest family.

I’m blessed with good friends. There are some that I’ve not contacted for quite some time, but when I did, they didn’t say things like "I thought you have forgotten me" (yeah, there are some individuals acting like they’ve been trying to reach me and never get to me because I was busy or etc. But the truth is, they didn’t do any of that reaching out thingy. They just waited there, waiting for me to drop a line and when I didn’t do it, I am to blame. These people are out to get people and ready to blame others). But the ones I keep are the best! =) I’m trying to be a good friend as well.

I’m blessed with a good man. I may not be getting a romantic dinner overlooking the ocean or a candlelight dinner - because it’s not practical. But, I know I will never be short of supply of make-up, cleanser, mosturiser a.k.a. all the things I need. I may not be getting what I want, but he will make sure I get what I need. I get frustrated from time to time, but I learned that no one is perfect. I have my flaws, might as well accept his flaws.

I’m being taken care of. Nice.

This nice little butterfly is for Nadia…

1)Who did you last go out with?
* My dearest Encik Muqri - Went to Ust Toha’s wedding

2) What do you want to receive on your birthday?
*  A huge amount of money - enough to go through my life. Hehe..Being very materialistic here.

3) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
* A bottle of "Bleu".

4) What time did you sleep last night?
* Around 10-ish. Boring je tengok Jom Heboh.

5) What’s the wallpaper on your computer?
* Green leaves with drops of dew and ladybirds

6) What can you hear besides the computer?
* fly fm

7) Do you agree to the saying "To Forgive Is To Forget"?
* Forgive and forget are two different things.

When, where was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?
* last week, at home - alone.

9) What/who makes you happy?
* Recently? The ladybird-coloring session with my fiance. =)

10) What makes you sad?
* Recently? when people closest to me do not have enough faith in me.

11) What are your favorite books?
* mcNaught, cathy kelly novels. I read cecelia ahern for sometime & discovered that it’s too upsetting. Hehe..

12) What would you like to have right at this moment which seems totally impossible?
* a box of mint chocalate chip ice cream

13) Whom will you turn to if you have huge problems?
* Depends on the category of the probs.

14) What’s your favorite song at the moment?
* Alicia Key’s slow one. Cant seem to remember the title.

15) What was the last song that kept ringing on your mind last night before
you sleep?
* none

16) What was the best event that happened last year?
* outings with my friends.

17) Where did you go today?
* only to work

18) Who were you with? Were they cool?
* my colleagues

19) Last thing you eat?
* Nasi + Ayam merah

20) Have you gone to the beach this week?
* nope..wish i can go..

21) Do you love sunsets?
* Yes. Nice view from my apartment! =)

22) When is your birthday?
* Sept 26

23) What are your wishes for your birthday?
* some monatery support for my life chapters, thank you & a lot of love from my mr-fix-it, family and friends.

24) Who do you wanna be with on your birthday?
* All my love ones

25) Have you ever felt that you’ve been taken for granted?
* yes. years ago. huh! When I stood up for myself, I was blamed as an ignorant. Huh!

26) Things you regret?
* Toxic friendship.

27) Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
* Have a scrumptious dinner..*sigh* - reality : i’ll be having yesterday’s spaghetti.

28) What’s the most important sentence/s that lingers in your mind right now?
* find that silver lining.

29) Do you know how to play the guitar?
* not in the correct way. haha.

30) Who’s the last person you sms?
* nadia iryanty putri abd kadir. It’s her 25th birthday today!!! Yipee!

31) KFC or Kenny Rogers?
* I like the side dishes of kenny rogers..

32) Where did you go last Friday?
* only to work. no where else. nak byr bil air, opis tu tutup plak..

33) What did you do there?
* working la..