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Was browsing through yahoo news when stumbled upon this. Me reminiscing the good old days..Hehehe..

Top 10 Scary Creatures

Number 10 - Goblins

Made famous in fairy tales, the small and furry goblin is more mischievous than menacing. Legend tells of goblins hiding out in forests, pulling pranks and sometimes switching human babies for their own changeling spawn. Unlike some of the other creatures mentioned here and probably because of their disconnect from religion, goblins never quite crossed the threshold from the imaginary to cause real panic in medieval towns.

Number 9 - Demons

One of those all-encompassing terms for an "evil spirit," a demon can represent anything from a malevolent ghost or fallen angel to a puppet of Satan. Like the notion of evil itself, they have ancient origins and appear in folklore and literature across the world. The demon that possessed Linda Blair in "The Exorcist" is probably pop culture’s most famous and most talented, with levitation capability, rotating head and amazing, life-like spewing action!

Number 8 - Gargoyles

They’re one way to add a little freaky je ne sais quoi to otherwise lovely architecture. But gargoyles, those frightening stone monsters protruding from cathedrals worldwide, do actually have a function. They were incorporated into gothic stonework as early as the 13th-century to keep rain water off cathedral roofs, their mouths serving as the ejector spout. More spiritually, gargoyles were supposed to protect the congregation from the ever-present evil forces lurking outside. Two birds with one stone, so to speak.

Number 7 - Zombies

Kings of the b-movie industry, zombies are individuals who’ve either had their souls sucked from their bodies or been revived from the dead through black magic. Zombie culture stems from the voodoo religion of Haiti, where it is still believed that people can fall into mindless trances just like the walking dead we’ve seen on film (minus the missing limbs and snacking on human flesh). An ethnobotanist investigating the claims in Haiti found a toxic drug that could actually induce a zombie-style catatonic state.

Number 6 - Werewolves

Typically normal and well-mannered until a Full Moon kicks in, werewolves are cursed shapeshifters that have appeared in the legend set of nearly every culture going back to ancient Greece. Like witches, they were hunted in medieval times and blamed for community murders that couldn’t be explained otherwise. Though the violent werewolf stories of old seem to have fallen off the radar, except in Hollywood, there remains an excessive body-hair disorder lovingly nicknamed "the werewolf disease."

Number 5 - Jack-O’-Lanterns

A standout among freaks and monsters, the nutritious pumpkin may be Halloween’s most famous symbol. The practice of carving and lighting the gourd is a Celtic custom brought to America by Irish immigrants, who used the more-plentiful turnip back home. Glowing, frightening faces emanating from the pumpkins were meant to frighten off the evil spirits thought to roam the streets on Oct. 31, the Celtic New Year’s Eve.

Number 4 - Bats

They’re blind, they hang out in caves and they inspire masked crusaders. But how did bats become associated with Halloween? The winged mammals can thank vampires for that. Like their Draculian counterparts, a small number of bat species actually subsist on animal blood— vampire bats have been known to attack humans on occasion—using sharp teeth to cut into the sleeping victim. Their nocturnal ways and connection to Ozzy Osbourne probably don’t help either.

Number 3 - Witches

Forget the pointy black hat and warty nose. Those popular associations are relatively recent compared with the long and often tragic history of witches across the globe. In the past, witches were thought to possess magical powers connected with the natural world. Like all pagans, they were demonized as heretics by the Christian church, a hunt that reached its apex in medieval Europe and 17th-century America. Good luck picking them out of a crowd today: witch costumes frequently top the list at Halloween.

Number 2 - Ghosts

Poke two eye holes in a bed sheet and you’ve got the easiest Halloween costume around. Becoming a real ghost is a bit more complicated. First you have to die, maybe tragically, then leave part of your soul hanging around earth to spook relatives and haunt houses. From a supposedly scientific angle, parapsychologists argue that energy—including what’s in the body—can never be completely destroyed. Society seems to agree: various studies peg belief in ghosts at about 50 percent.

Numero Uno - VAMPIRES

They vant to suck your blood, and have for quite some time. Vampires have popped up in cultural folklore for thousands of years, though the fanged-and-coiffed version we know comes from the 18th and 19th-century myths of Eastern Europe. There, it was believed that someone who was born with deformities or died an irregular death could, after burial, rise again to terrorize the living. Vampires were considered “undead” and needed to feast on human blood to remain so.

Goosebumps!

If I still have all the collections of books I had since I first lay my hand on those one of the magical things on earth, I could start my own library.

I’d have an adventure section, consists of all Hardy Boys, Alfred Hitchcock, Nancy Drew and Enid Blyton series. These are the books I first read with full enthusiasm. Back then, I would save up my school money (50cent per day - yes, that is exactly how much I got per day) and by the end of the weekend, I’d asked my mom to drive me to Radin’s Bookstore so that I can buy those little books of adventure which cost $1.90 each. It was the bahasa Melayu version. I’d bought 2 of them per week. I guess that’s how I developed the logic in me. All those adventures & mysteries to solved. But these days, I’ve stopped reading adventure/mystery books, instead I watch tv series, movies. There goes the book…

Next to the adventure section, there should be a nice tiny, cosy corner for light reading. You can find the sweet and funny books on hostel life, campus life and teenage love. I can’t remember the name of the series of hostel life (Malay version), but the story goes around a secondary school of girls (sekolah asrama penuh). This is how I had the picture of hostel life - which later made me prefer attending daily school rather than the asrama penuh. Haha.. I’ve also developed interest in reading Sweet Valley High when my dad started to give more than 50cent per day - $1 to be exact. Later I discovered that Enid Blyton writes on teenage life & love, so I got my hands on them. Then, I was addicted.

At a secluded corner of the room, I would have a huge (I mean HUGE) collection of Fear Street series by R.L.Stine, with additional books from Christopher Pike and some series of Draculas/Vampire. You might find a couple of Stephen King’s book also. I was so intrigued by the fear of ghosts or scary, ghoulish creatures. Not so much on paranormal activities since I can’t find the logic of it. Evertyhing that happens must have a reason. Like, ghosts wander around because their spirit is not at rest (e.g.). I’d read the book non-stop, I can finish a 300 page book in 2-3 hours (and after that, I can even describe every single thing I read!- if only it works in school books). I’ve never missed even a single episode of X-Files. I watched all those Friday late-night shows of scary movies; Nightmare on Elm Street series, Texas Masacre, The Gremlins(tee-hee), just to name a few. I love being scared. I’d turned the lights off, with a pillow as a company, and a glass of water for the thirst. I was THAT brave. I dare not watch even the advertisement of ghost movies, now. I’ve watched A Tale of Two Sisters, Exorcist, a few Indonesian scary movies during my varsity moments and I get spooked. I started to imagine those ghost coming to get me. That is how I started to avoid scary movies. I detest it. It gives me goosebumps.

On a lighter scale, I’d have Enid Blyton’s children tales. The one that cost $7.90 when they first came out (with hard cover, mind you - books are cheap during those days), then after some issues, it rose up to $11.90, $13.90 being the highest. Now, the last time I saw it, it was around that price also. All those nice kiddy stories of a white bunny, a melting ice man, fairies & pixies, flying cottage, toys that are alive when no one’s looking - I love Amelia Jane. Lost it in a flood (sigh). I spent a lot of time reading those books. Some, I even read it over and over again.

Then, I grew up. I started to read romance novels - with Judith McNaught being the top of the list. I had some other good books by various authors, but none attracts me as much as McNaught. The words somehow give access to my imagination, so that I can feel that I’m actually there. I’m beginning to read Cecilia Ahern now. Good one also. Nice presentation of emotions. And there’s this Cathy Kelly. She writes beautifully on relationships. The books are thick (so more pleasure in reading) and it cost around RM39.90. A good value for the money.

Another section not to be missed is the motivation, inspiration, self-reflecting books. From time to time, I bought these books as a reminder. Books on personality and happiness attract me most. Maybe I can throw in the collections of Reader’s Digest in here.

In my library, I’d have a lounge where I can put all the magazines from the subject of entertainment to fashion (or is it entertainment AND fashion? Hehe). Smash Hits, Teen Beats, Top of The Pops, Galaxie, TV Hits, Marie Claire, Cleo. So many of them that I lost count. I’ve even threw out some of them. Those were the days. I’m having cleo for now, to feed my hunger for new things to read. Nothing else. Anyway, that’s the cheapest reading material I can afford now. Oh yeah, there’s newspaper, but too much unhappiness lah. Reading newspapers make me sad. I only read good news. Ha-ha. No newspaper allowed in my library.

I was taught to not care much on how much I spend on reading materials (or on food). Thanks to mommy and daddy. I guess, the knowledge you get is worth the money.

I always look for small prints and thick book. Just because I will have more enjoyable time reading it, more pleasure, more imagination. Time - is what I don’t have much nowadays. I would love to cuddle up in blankets and read book. Hmm…I HAVE to make time to read again. Going to get a book soon. The last one I had was of Cecilia Ahern - ps. I love you. Had me in tears. 

When I read books, I was living the life of the characters. It’s a good way for de-stressing (for me lah). It worked when I was a child, and it still works its magic on me now. I learned about life mostly through books and tv. Maybe somehow it influenced my personality and mindset as well. I told you, it is MAGIC! =)                  

I got this from Miss Nadia. Enjoy reading it & have new insights of your temperament.

ARIES                                   MARCH 21 – APRIL 20

Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum.  But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged.  Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent.  But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast.  They are also the first to apologies, which makes them easier to forgive.

TAURUS                              APRIL 21 – MAY 20

You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions.  It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don’t know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing.  You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong.  You also hate being reminded about mistakes you’ve made in the past.  You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

GEMINI                               MAY 21 – June 29

You are recognized by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger.  In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically.  But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason.  You must have the last word in a wordy duel.  Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.

CANCER                               JUNE 21 – JULY 21

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself.  You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper.  If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly.  But that does not mean you do not have a temper.  When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words.  Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO                                       JULY 22 – AUGUST 21

If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you.  But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring.  You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don’t care about opinions.  You don’t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot.  But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet.  When angry you can use critical language.  A dressing down can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.

VIRGO                                  AUGUST 22 – SEPTEMBER 21

Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent.  When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand.  You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall.  You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser.  You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions.  When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

LIBRA                                   SEPTEMBER 22 – OCTOBER 22

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac?  Well, it’s true.  Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry.  You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality.  You also think you are above things like anger.  But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood.  Your family or those very close to you know you better.  You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

SCORPIO                             OCTOBER 23 – NOVEMBER 21

Of course you don’t lose your cool.  But your very demeanour (manner) projects haughtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human).  Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person that try to be funny with you.  You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superfluous (extra) types.  Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself!  When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS                  NOVEMBER 22 – DECEMBER 20

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions.  You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked.  Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down.  Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake.  You’re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you’re upset with them.

CAPRICORN                      DECEMBER 21 – JANUARY 19

Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions.  You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others.  You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings.  But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper.  Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person.  Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

AQUARIUS                         JANUARY 20 – FEBRUARY 18

You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over your emotions.  It is very rare for you to get angry.  You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments.  It is always your endeavor to be perfect and socially correct in your behavior and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst.  You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene.  You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.

PISCES                                 FEBRUARY 19 – MARCH 20

The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry.  You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them.  But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn.  You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up.  Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic.  When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone.  But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness.  SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

Charmers of the zodiacs. Cool. I am capricious, anyway. Tee-hee.

Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup,

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf,

Stand together, yet not too near together,

For the pillars of the temple stand apart,

And the oak tree and the cyprus grow not from each other’s shadow.

Kahlil Gibran

I think, one of the sweetest thing in life is to have someone to share your life with. Despite the hassle of planning a wedding, the over-budget must-be and the fact that you lose a bit of your authority of your own life, to have someone to hold you with love at the end of the day, it worth the while.

Raya was different now that I am older. Instead of receiving duit raya, I have to give it. But surprisingly, I did get some from my grandma & auntie. Hehee…Cool. Raya is no more about new clothes and counting money in green envelopes. Raya is more about getting together and seeing uncles & aunties getting wrinkles, older cousins yelling at their kids, cousins my age getting married, little cousins going to colleges, nephews & nieces running around the house giving headaches to their mommies & daddies, friends starting up new careers, friends planning on weddings, friends getting married, friends having babies..

I have lost track of how many weddings I have attended, both family and friends. But I am looking forward to attend more, to celebrate the union of love. And this morning, I received an invitation from one of my good friends, Khairul Bariah. She’s getting married on this coming Christmas. I have another 3 friends getting married in these coming 2 months. I have also attended a wedding of a friend’s sis in Labis (sorry can’t stay long Kak Ina..). Next year, I probably be attending another 3 wedding of my cousins’ and maybe another 2-3 weddings of friends (Mas, Hajar, Lydia, hoping to hear the good news from you). Though it’s all mean a big whole in my pocket (sigh), but it’s the least I can do to celebrate them. Hey, I don’t mind spending some for good friends and family. They’ve given me good times and memories.

Cheers to all who are moving up a stage in life, whether you are starting a new career, a new life, a new family, a new resolution. Congratulations, all! =)

Cheers to me also, for stepping into a new zone in my life. Excellent. 

I hate it when I am writting something emotional and suddenly the page just lost in a blink of an eye. Here I go again with my second attempt.

He came all the way, on a bus (on the busiest time of the year, in this hazy weather, with the zaniest traffic situation, and on top of all, it’s a fasting month), to accompany me home.

I have read in novels, heard others’ experiences, watched in films - of all the sweetest things one does for the person he / she loves. I have never imagine that I was in run for one of those magical moments. Guess, I am lucky enough to get it! =) Others might think that it’s a simple thing - why would anyone make a fuss out of it. But for me, this is BIG. Maybe because of the nature of the relationship. But then again, others would disagree with me. As for me, this is my blog. I write what I want. Our relationship was not like others. It started out bumpy and I don’t like it a bit. Maybe that’s why I found this sacrifice that he made as unbelieveable. He made a lot of other sacrifices, but this one gets the throne. Maybe because I think that I can do it myself (I mean, I have drove home alone a few times now, and I am OK), and I also know that he knows that I am capable of doing so. But he insists on doing it. I guess the beauty lies there.

He chose the hussle from the comfort. He chose exhaustion from the relaxation. He chose to come rather to stay. I am truly grateful for this. For the simple gesture, I have forgotten all the arguments, heartaches and disappoinments I had because of him. For his effort, I have made a promise to myself. 

He might be a nuisance at times, I might disagree with his political believes, his friends irritate me, his attitude some times confused me, he might be a little too pushy on me, but because of this extraordinary action that he took, I pledge myself to him. As long as I breathe the air, and as long as I walk the earth, I will always love him. I will always make sure that he is safe and well. I will take good care of those he loves dearly.

I am the luckiest person alive. I am grateful for having the opportunity to experience this.

Of all the men in this world, of all the loves in this lives - only a father’s love can make a person do this.

Now, come to think of it, this post can qualify as a PETRONAS ad. Hahaha. Selamat Hari Raya, friends..Maaf zahir dan batin..Balik kampung elok-elok…I was ready to feel sorry for myself, for going home alone, but it seems like I will not, not this year! =) Take care, all.

Eh, I kinda looking forward to drive alone - to feel what it’s like to balik kampung alone. To feel what it’s like to be independent. I might be doing it in years to come. Who knows..    

"You don’t get to choose how you’re going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you’re going to live - now."

Joan Baez Singer/Songwriter Thanks to Fadhilah for sharing with me the quotes. I really love it! Thank you so much, dear… How am I going to live. Hmm..Today, I might want to be like the late Endon. I was reading an article written by one of her close friends just now. She was talking about how nice Endon is. About her contributions despite her deteriorating health, her efforts despite her weaknesses. It was inspiring. It’s easy to see that people with good hearts will be a fond remembrance for family and friends and even strangers. I wonder, if I die, would I get the same honors as her. Well, I don’t mean the media coverage and all, but more to the way people will remember me. Will I be missed or easily forgotten? Will I be the kind one, or no one important? Will I be remembered for the good things I have done or the bad things I did? Will I be remembered for my achievements or my failures? I don’t want to think about the ‘other’ relationship, as I know what I have done, what I am doing and what I am going to do to get His blessing. But what concern me more is my relationship to people around me. I have to go. Got to attend President’s Talk. Aiya!

I won’t have time to blog tomorrow, as I am going to have a meeting. And on Friday, I have to finish up some of my works so that I can go Balik Kampung in cheery mood.

Mas, why is stokin acting like that ha? Asyik mengiau jek sepanjang masa. Sape ajar dia makan kena berteman ni? Tak pasal2, kena dok sebelah dia je tunggu dia makan. Nasib baik la diri sendiri yang cari pasal nak dia. Hahahha…Thanks anyway, mas. You ROCK! (Luahan perasaan terhadap mas)

Bie, thanks for being a good companion, and thanks for understanding the situation. Gheesshh..takdelah lagi dalam dunia ni nak cari orang macam bie. I love you, for loving me the way I am, and for giving me space.

Kak Gee, hahhahaa….benti jelah keje tu..Nyusah jek.

Nad, sudah2 lah angau tu..bahaya…

KaK ina, Kita jumpe raya nanti! =) Miss you so much!

Lydia, you are my inspiration! "Looking Forward to your 30th birthday!" WoW! I’m impressed! Love you still.

Hajar, Syifa, Mas, Yah, ada teka teki baru - hahahha…teka teki best punye..nanti bagi masa raye jek lah. Remind me to bawak watermelon! Sila ingatkan sehari sebelum majlis. Hajar, hari sabtu petang2 sket dtg umah. balik tu nak tido dulu.

Fadhilah, selamat beraya ye…elok2 kat sana…hope you have a good time there. amek gambar and can show me later.

Zaiti, hahahha..x sempat bagi gambar, ptg tu x sempat, smlm I MC - sakit kronik. esok lusa pun x sempat..lepas raya lah!! Jangan marah, I love u.

To the others, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin…

Hehehe..tak sabar nak balik raya. =)

"You are well known for your sociable and outgoing nature, love to communicate your ideas to others and are rarely at loss for words. You see yourself as capable in the way you offer your opinions and for this reason people often seek out your advice. Your decision-making processes sometimes cause you great anxiety. You may find it an impossible task to make a firm commitment. In this state of mind you will seek the opinion of others to support your own ideas and end up confusing yourself even more. Try harder to rely on your own inner experience and not use others as a crutch." -LIBRA-

If I am a sociable person, why do I feel uncomfortable going to places of many crowds? All those noise and pushing and talking at the highest decibels make me dizzy and somewhat threaten, that often make me cling on to whoever is with me. But, I guess, I find it easy to greet strangers and make friends easily.

Outgoing nature. I like that. I thrive on happiness. Going out for fun is fun! Having that "singing happy happy happy happy happy happy song" tune in my head. Having that happy smile on my face. Laughing merrily and think of that person who jumped queue is a lost cos he impatiently passed through his time.

I do talk about my ideas to friends, it doesn’t matter if they accept or believe every word I said, or they just discard it. I just think that I have the right to offer my opinions, base on my knowledge. Like this Jolly Shandy e-mail I received this morning. It’s on of those forward e-mails of precautions on consuming non-halal items. Telling people to be careful and not be confused with the F&N look-alike canned drinks, and that the "contains alcohol" word is written in tiny letters. I mean, it’s a good reminder, but I don’t think people should be confused with the drinks; because the name (shandy) itself means it’s an alcoholic drinks. Unless they don’t understand it. As much as it is important to know the hukum of drinking alcoholic drinks, it is also vital to know about it. Some people might say that we can’t do this, or that and must avoid it at any cost, we don’t need to know about it, as long as we know that it’s forbidden, then we are fine. It is not wrong to learn about it. It’s the knowledge that will eventually save us.

I do have difficulties in making decision. I am pretty meticulous in deciding things, especially if it’s on my life. Yet, at times, I can be indecisive.

Loss my words.

I know there are lot of peeps feeling "manis" yesterday. If you feel one, you are one (ok Fadh?). Good for you.

Friday again. Kak Ina Tassa is coming today. To be scheduled to stay at my place. Nak korek cerita about her job and moving back here. Yeay! I can finally have a decent dosage of yummy Ikan Bilis. Haha.

"Jumaat yang damai". Somebody once came up with this phrase and everytime Friday comes, I have it jinggling in my head. Hah! At least I still have good memories of that person. Nah, I have a LOT of good memories of that particular person. Forbidden love. Ha-ha. I wonder what she’s up to now. Sometimes, I can’t help but wondering, how she’s doing now, is she happy, you know, stuff like that. It had become a habit for me to ask her daily of those Qs. But since the argument, I’ve been fighting with my ego to kill the habit. But that doesn’t necessarily stop me from thinking about her. Friendship is about accepting. She won’t accept my change and I withdrew. Funny as it is - I told her that she should accept me for who I am, respect my decision, bla bla bla. When she refused, I became her - I couldn’t accept that she won’t accept me. Who makes the rule of friendship? Why do we have to follow it?

Back home, I found the true beauty of friendship (Girls, I won’t mention your names, but I guess you’ll figure it). I have a bunch of friends who, well how do I say it in a nice way..ermm.. same but yet are different. We have nothing in common (as in personality), but we tolerate each other just fine. Leaving me out of the bunch, it’s about A who disagrees with B’s decision. Well, there are C, D, who disagree with B’s decision. Hahaha..But I would like to highlight A. Well, B’s decision was made based on her needs and knowledge. A saw a blindspot (so does C and D), some area that maybe B was rather unclear. I believe A has discussed it with B, and A still is left unsatisfied. But despite her dissatisfaction, she tolerates B just fine. I believe that A (and C and D) are just worried for B. Afterall, B is their friend and they feel the need to look after her. Afraid that she might stumble later. These girls are the best example of good friends. A, C, D maybe disagree with B’s decision, but they don’t imagine dreadful things for B, or made foolish and hurtful assumptions. They realize that B is deciding her own life. She is the one who will go through the journey. I believe that the friends will be there if B stumbles. There might be (90% possibility) a lot of "I told you so" but in the end, these friends will be the one to stand behind B, giving her the boost she needs. Hey, maybe B will turn out ok. Who knows?! No use stopping her from doing what she wants. Stopping her will only make the friends look bad (for not supporting her) and if she turns out ok, the friends will look silly. So A, C and D, it was a smart step, to let B live her own life as how she wants it and from time to time be there to give her your perspectives (remember the blindspot?) in the nicest way you can deliver it. No use scarring the lovely bond you have weaved together all these while. I have the bestest friends ever! =)

I am so looking forward to Friday, and yet,this morning, when the alarm goes off, why did I feel weary and stayed in bed for another 10 minutes? Funny.      

Sekurang-kurangnya ada 5 orang dalam dunia menyayangi anda dan sanggup mati kerana anda.

Are there? Willing to die for me.. If there is, I am so blessed, aren’t I? I have never think as far as that. But, I am sure I can do that for those I really really really love. May it be family or friends or strangers. If there are people out there who are willing to die for me, I really appreciate it. But I do think that to die for someone else is being exagerrated la. Donate organs (liver, blood, kidney, bone marrow, etc) is ok. But I guess, when it’s time for me to die, let me go. I could never live happily knowing that someone else died to save me. It’s whether let me die or die with me. Ha-ha.

Sekurang-kurangnya ada 15 orang dalam dunia ini menyayangi anda dalam beberapa cara.

At least 15? Ha-ha. I know this is absolutely 100% correct. Because I love at least 15 people in various way - the ways only that particular person and I understand. I love my brothers and sis eventhough they can be the most annoying, irritating monkeys (as they are) in this whole universe. I love Muq in the way he loves me (ya kah?), I love Nad and ain in the most outrageous way (ha-ha), I love Kak Ina in the subtle way, and  I love other friends (I can’t list them all!) in other different ways. So, I believe that at least I have other people, loving me in their own unique ways. Thanks, everyone! Let me know that you love me ya! =)

Sebab utama seseorang membenci anda adalah kerana dia ingin menjadi seperti anda.

Yes. I would like to agree on this. It happens. There are people out there who let jealousy rules their lifes. This is one of the mantra that I keep when I heard someone is hating me or when I started to hate someone. I analyse my feelings, why am I hating this person? Was it because he/she has what I don’t have? Often, the answer is "Yes". Pity. A reminder to myself: to be careful with negative feelings to others. It’s destructive. This mantra also works for me - If someone happens to hate me, I can just smile, knowing that I am so damn good that that person wants to be me. Hahahaha. Which means, I am so above him/her. Nice. Poor them, they just don’t know how to channel it in positive ways.

Senyuman daripada anda boleh membawa kebahagiaan kepada seseorang, walaupun dia tidak menyukai anda.

I am not sure about my smile, but long ago (yeah), it happened to me. A smile from that person that I dislike (for some reasons which I think is so childish - forgive me, I was only a teenager then) made my day! It was one of the secret feelings I felt. Not a secret anymore la eh. Smiles can work wonders. Dapat pahala pulak tu. I was taught to always look presentable and nice everytime. You never know who will look at you and what opportunity he/she will bring you. Never frown, no matter how intense your thought are. But it is not easy to do. I have people catching me on my gloomy face. Haha..Only when I think about the bad deeds I have done. Bummer.

Setiap malam ada seseorang mengingati anda sebelum dia tidur.

Is it? Oh, how sweet… Just this morning, after subuh prayer, I was thinking of asking En Razali whether his wife has delivered the baby or not. And my thoughts drift to Kak Gee. Funny. Then I fell asleep.

Anda amat bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.

I am sure I am. Just as others are meaningful to me.

Kalau bukan kerana anda,seseorang itu tidak akan hidup bahagia.

I hope I have helped the lost souls, at least make someone really happy, gave a push good enough to get the person achieves his/her dreams, be an inspiration, gave the right advices, comforted sad hearts, leave good memories, tickle some funny bones…

Anda seorang yang istimewa dan unik.

I have my own insecurities and flaws. But who doesn’t, right? I am special and unique in my own way. "Good things come in small packages. I believe you are one of it" (Mama, 2004). She gave me a boost. Lucky me. I believe that the weaknesses I have, the mistakes I made are ways of improvement.   

Seseorang yang anda tidak ketahui menyayangi anda.

Ha? Adakah?

Apabila anda membuat kesilapan yang sangat besar,ada hikmah sebaliknya.

Hikmah apa lagi.. To learn lah. uuuu..I made a lot of mistakes. Still haven’t learn from some of it. =P Shame on me.

Sekiranya anda merasakan anda dipinggirkan, fikirkan semula; mungkin anda yang meminggirkan mereka.

If I feel ignored, I won’t complain. There are some people in life that you have to ignore. What to do if the relationship is a toxic one? But, I keep reminding myself that from time to time, I have to at least sms friends. Good ones would last forever. Bad ones, ditch ‘em.

Apabila anda terfikir anda tidak mempunyai peluang untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang anda ingini,mungkin anda tidak akan memperolehinya,tetapi sekiranya anda percaya pada diri sendiri lambat laun anda akan memperolehinya.

Yes..If you believe….I am working towards it. But believe alone, I bet it can’t be done. Action. That’s the key. Meticulous planning, a lot of smart decision making, good problem solving and action. That’s the magic word. Action (provided with good planning la).

Kenangilah segala pujian yang anda terima. Lupakan segala maki hamun, caci umpat cela.

Easier said than done. I cannot just forget all the terrible names people call me. To forgive is fine, to forget is impossible. But then again, it doesn’t matter at all. Those names did not describe me. They describe the person who called me. Huhu.. I had people calling me names since I was little. I didn’t like it a bit and I grew up with this value : Calling people names is a rude thing to do. It shows no respect to that person and it shows that the person doing it has no respect of her/himself - in which degrading the person’s values & personality. I do remember the compliments people gave me. I have make it a habit to find good things in people and tell them. They deserve it anyway. I am not sucking up to them (I’ve heard someone labeled me with that comment), but I am appreciating them.

Jangan takut untuk meluahkan perasaan anda; anda akan merasa senang bila seseorang mengetahuinya.

Hehe..Syifa, you go girl! =) Good for you. Which reminds me, I seldom use the 3 magic words nowadays. Hmm..I wonder why…

Sekiranya anda mempunyai sahabat baik, ambillah masa untuk memberitahunya yang dia adalah yang terbaik.Hanya seminit diperlukan untuk mendapat sahabat baik,sejam untuk menghargainya,sehari untuk teman tetap paling setia.walaupun punya harta yang banyak,teman tetap paling berharga.

That’s right. Teman yang bagus-bagus sahaja. Those are for keeps. Like my friends! =) I love you all! Sape makan gula, dia la yang terasa manisnya..