“sehr sub”

Lydia post this as her bulletin. I took it and put it here cos this is good one for reflecting myself. Plus, I can write MORE..hehe..

FIVE YEARS AGO…2001

How old were you?
18 (became 19 on Sept 2001)

Where did you go to school?
only had been 4 months in UNIMAS. Was nerdy and all with that big glasses, was all quiet and shy.

Where did you work?
student gik

Where did you live?
BE335, Kolej Kenari, UNIMAS. A small, packed room. A single room meant to be, but diletak 2 katil.

Where did you hang out?
No where. Since baru nak form friendship. Paling tak pun, dok kat cafe kenari tu..Windy la there.

How was your hair style?
Long and straight.

Did you wear braces?
No. Dentists had always praise me for my good teeth.

Did you wear glasses?
Yes. Add up to the essence of nerdiness. Hehe..Nerdy means smart, right? Haha..I wish..

Who was your best friend?
Ain (we sms-ed each other), Nadia (she’ll call me on every little things), Gee (haha..my yet-to-be-hero), Zira (she was a comfort).

Who was your regular-person crush?
no crush

( I was the nerd, remember?)

Who was your celebrity crush?
I can’t remember..Done with it I guess. Not crushing on anyone.

How many tattoos did you have?
Nil

How many piercings did you have?
1 on each ear

What car did you drive?
2001? No cars. hehe..baru dapat lesen, tak berani. even afterwards, bawak dengan hd laju kebangsaan, 70km/j.

What was your favorite band/group?
masih BSB kot

What was your worst fear?
I dunno yet. haven’t discover it yet.

Had you driven yet?
Yes. Baru dapat lesen masa matrix.

Had you been arrested?
No. Nerdy people don’t get arrested.

Had your heart broken?
Never. I didn’t give mine to anyone pun..so no risk of being heart broken. Clever isn’t it?

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Single and hoping to be swept away off my feet by some handsome, cool guy. Hahaha..LOL. Truth was, single and making myself believe that I will own my life, living it alone, climbing the career ladder. what more can i asked for? I was this nobody. I only had my family and 2 greatest friends back at my hometown.

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE
NOW !!!!!**

August 2006

How old are you?:
23 (counting the days to 24)

What grade are you in?:
Grade A. Hahaha..No grades, am working now, complaining, but happy =)

Where do you go to school?:
Everyday I woke up at 6.30am and travel 20 minutes to Multimedia University. Every single day (including weekends, sometimes). Complaining, but still happy.

Where do you work?:
STAD, MMU

Where do you live?:
Seraya, Kajang. Cool place, up on this small hill that overlooks seremban highway, kajang town, a bit of putrajaya, on good days, dapat tgk klcc and kl tower.

Where do you hang out?
MMU (sadly, complain again, but am happy), sometimes at various shopping complex, but the most is at kedai2 makan.

Do you have braces?
still no braces. Cuma dah lama tak gi jumpa dentist.

Do you wear glasses?
At night. Bagi rest ini mata. No more big, nerdy glasses. Haha..

Who is your best friend?
Still those 2 girls (nadia & ain - inseparable), Gee (it has lasted for 5 years, dari dia bujang sampai kahwin, sampai..lalalala..), Lydia (I always love her advices. Hehehe..She’s a treasure), Ijah (Good friend she is, my problem solver alternatives - hehe..), Cik Mina (walaupun baru setahun lebih, she has offered me more than enough, she has taught me a lot)

Still talk to any of your old friends?
Yes. and found some old ones who I have lost contact with.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Nil. Not important now.

How many piercings do you have
same & unused.

How many tattoos?
Zero

What kind of car do you have?
Kereta Ikan

What is your favorite band/group?
I am a universal listener. Anything goes as long as I can stand the sound.

What is your biggest fear?
To lose the people that I love dearly, each of my family members - mak ayah adik2 and extended family, my bestest friends - they are a comfort to me, and my favorite male companion - and loyal, too. 

Have you been arrested since?
No. Hampir kena saman - memories with cik mina with her red kereta burung involving the red traffic light. hehehe…

Has your heart been broken?
Yes, but more by friends rather than boys. But it has been a good experience and has taught me well about life in reality.

Had you been to a real party yet?
What’s the difference between real party and party? they are all the same. Majlis makan2 adalah. Seronok. Hehehe..

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?
Blissfully taken. Macam lagu Jac, Cepat cepat tu. kelakar la lagu tu. Ambil aku cepat2..bla..bla..bla..nice music tp lyric kelakar.

I’ve changed. My goals, my dreams, my life, my personality, my views. Thanks to all the people who have taken part in my life story. tak kira sama ada orang - orang tersebut masih berada di dalam hidup saya or have left.

I never imagine that I will be in this career line. I thought, once I graduated, I’ll be working in a consultation firm or any organisation other than academic organisation. I did my best to avoid working in the academic field. But low and behold, here I am, in one of the most prestigious universities.

But my trip to Klang last night reminded me on things that I have once enjoyed. The simplest little things. The things that I know, I will not have the chance of experiencing if I was to work in other fields. The trip took about an hour or so, plus the traffic jammed and asking direction from the toll girl (hehe…the girl even get annoyed because we asked her again and again - for confirmation).

On any given days, the trip would surely be a boring one. But the boys and girls were great. They sang songs from the 80s and early 90s (Sinar FM rocks! Bring back all the childhood memories). They even sang the tacky Singer slogan "Singer, menawan keluarga bahagia.." If I’m not mistaken. (It has been ages since I last heard that). That moment. That exact moment, made me smile. I remember going on a bus trip with my friends, singing along to all the songs on the radio, creating a bunch of different lyrics because we can’t remember the exact ones, taking pictures every five minutes or so. It was hilarious. I was blessed with that kind of sweet experience yesterday. Something that maybe some people out there missed most.

Things like that are the ones that made my day. Even after a tiring day, I managed to shake it off, thanks to the therapeutic help from the students. I am proud to say that I am lucky. I used to do all those things that my students did last night, but yesterday, I had the chance of experiencing it all again, but through different eyes. It will always be my treasure.

Being among students made me take things a little less serious. When I was a student, I had worries, but the worries will go as soon as I laughed and joked around with my friends. Stress was never an issue because students have creative ways of realeasing the unnecessary stress. In a working world. I see things diffrently. Stress is a must and there are times when I don’t even know how to deal with it, rather than cried (yeah, and I am supposed to be one of the stress-busters. boo-hoo..). I am learning from the students now, they have problems, they got stucked and they laughed together. I used to do that! Not anymore, now. Reflecting on myself, I know, I was sent here, to be with the students, so that I can learn from them. And I guess I will be stuck here (happily) until I’ve learned enough from the kids.

And again, I slept soundly last night. Aaah…heaven.

Phew! Lucky for me the test was damn hard to finish within the time provided. Too many calculations and too little time. Never in my life have I experience doing what I did yesterday -menghitamkan jawapan pilihan mengikut kesukaan hati tanpa mengambil kira kesahihan jawapan tersebut.

I am all rusty when it comes to answering questions (on paper that is). Gosh! And only God knows how shallow is my knowledge on Malaysia! hahaha. Sitting for the exam, made me think how lucky it is to be a teacher (dengar , ain..). Never worries about the right kind of resume. No money spent on printing and posting resumes. No nerve-wrecking interviews that end up with no job. Never get to sit for a silly exams. (yelah, silly and yet I can’t answer it correctly =P hehehe..) Lucky teachers.

So many things happened yesterday. So many new things I’ve learned yesterday.

Happenings No 1: Meet 2 new friends (talk to other 2 but didn’t get to talk long since they were placed a level higher than me). Lia and Kila. Lia is the serious type and Kila is the happy girl. She was easy to be with, a friendly chap. Lia is currently doing her masters and Kila is an RA in UPM, looking forward to furthering her study in masters.

Learning No 1: Lia has talked to me about the exams for PTDs and the hard work of being a masters student. So, I learned a few things on both issues.

Learning No 2: I learned that it was easy for me to talk to strangers. I smiled at them and began talking. It feels great being the first to strike up the conversation.

Happenings No 2: I met an old friend of mine (unimas mari). She greeted me while I was on the phone listening to kak gee jabbering her way to my ears. It confirmed my instinct. (Refer to leaning No 3)

Learning No 3: I learned that recently, I can start to rely on my instinct. I saw the car and thought of that friend came across. Greeted by her there confirmed my instinct. Chey…

Happenings No 3: Jawab exam yang ntah pe2 tu. Not enough time lah! Thank God I’m not hoping so much on it.

Learning No 4: Remind myself to LEARN MORE ABOUT MALAYSIA. Huhuhu…

Happenings No 4: NOTIS PEMOTONGAN ELEKTRIK. I went home to see a red lletter from tnb notifying that the electrical source has been cut off since the tunggakkan dah mencapai RM1k. FUh! Dengan pantasnya, I went to withdraw the RM800 yang kak Na bagi untuk bayar half to tnb and half to Indah Water. before that, I called kak Yan to ask the direction to tnb bangi. I was impressed with myself, in half and hour, I managed to take a shower, get dressed, withdraw money, get lost and find tnb. All in 1/2 hour. Fuh! Then, spent another 1/2 hour in TNB going up and down to settle the debts (made by others, mind you).

Learning No 5: New policy of TNB, no continuation of electrical source if the tunggakan tidak dibayar sepenuhnya. Nasib baik the person is kind enuf to let me go with the 800.

Learning No 6: Never put off what I can do today till tomorrow! (Ha-ha)

Happenings No 5: The electricity was supposed to be back after 5pm. I waited for another 2 and half hour for it. In which includes me going to the security to ask for the riser room key, and was told to go to the offices and later was told that the key is with the chargeman - in Bangsar! Fortunately the guy told me to just "umpil je pintu tu". Haha..without wasting time, I went back to inform the TNB guy (after I berulang2 kali sebut the word "sure?" kepada pencadang yang bijaksana tu.) The TNB guy spent another few minutes trying to umpil pintu tu. and later the other guy found out that they got the wrong door. HAHHAHA..and the right door opened in two blinks. So, after kepenatan ke hulu ke hilir and being unreasonably mad at "someone", the electricity was back.

Learning No 7: Do not become unreasonably angry at others because it may trigger the person’s migraine and I will end up not having dinner (got to eat tomyam and abc after this).

Despite the many happenings during the day and night, I did get a sound sleep =)

I had the opportunity to work with a florist, recently.It was awesome. I used to joke around with my friends (during high school); of having a flower shop one day, or a book shop with attached cafe so that youngsters can lepak2 while reading books.

I love flowers. I had the chance of watching & learning about flowers and the process of making them. It was fun! =) Though the work was a  bit tiring, but what you get after selling them make you want to do more, I guess.

I might want to consider doing it lah. Hehehe… I just know who I should work with Boleh, kak Gee?

Flowers won’t last long. Yet, the feeling of receiving a bouquet, or even a stalk of rose, it beats the thought of having to see its petals dropping bit by bit. There’s something in flowers that make me smile, seeing them. What more to spread the joy of giving them so that those at the receiving end can share the mutual feelings.

I’ve been living for 2 decades(+) now, and as far as I remember, I’ve only received 3-4 bouquets of flowers. But I believe that I’ve spend more on buying myself flowers, to decorate my rooms or giving others. (I told muq not to give me fresh flowers on my graduation day, yet I still want flowers, but absolutely not the plastic ones. He’s thoughtful enough to get me a real red rose (preserved) in a glass container. Cute & exclusive - like me (gag!) That’s what I love about him most, his thoughtful gesture. Like an ice-cream on my moody day, or my fave drinks on a tiring day, or even a listening ear at times I need to bicker about things, or that patience he had with me(sometimes I wonder where does he finds all those patience - for those who know me best, you know how annoying I can get, kan kak Gee?). Eh, where am I going ha?

Back to flowers, nothing beats the feeling of the sweet smells and the soft petals of colourful flowers. I have nothing to say lagi lah.